May 8, 2010

Write your worries in sand. Carve your blessings in stone.

Brie was walking along side the ocean, her eyes fully fixed on the waves crashing. Her mind fully fixed on tomorrow. The dread, the pain, the worry, the fear--she knew what was coming. With one deep breath, Brie stepped away from the water, and on to dry land. With her wet finger, she wrote down every possible worry that lay on her heart. Before she knew it, she had written more than she even knew she was worried about. Looking down at her feet, she prayed,
"God, it's me, Brie. I've written here all the things holding me back. They've been apart of me for so long, and they're getting so heavy. They hurt my shoulders. God, I've been carrying them too long. Take them away from me. Wash me clean. And give me a heart that desires only You."
After Brie said "Amen", she noticed a big waved headed her way. When that wave hit the bottom of the sand, the rushing water washed away every word that Brie had written.
{Short story}

 He's God, ya know.
But for some reason, I have a hard time letting go. I don't want to be let down. The pain is too painful. The dread is too dreadful. I feel so much like Brie. I guess I haven't exactly gotten to the point of totally letting go yet. But you know what? It stupid to hold on to it. Think about it: Why in the world hold on to something that's holding me back, that's stressing me out, that's making me sad, angry and depressed--when God says I don't have to?
It's extra baggage.

It's extra stress. It's extra pain. It's extra worry.

I don't want it. I DO NOT WANT IT!

It is ruining me to the very core. And I want it out. I want peace. Rest. Hope. Joy.
And not cheap human joy. Supernatural, exuberant, LASTING joy. God's joy.

But....I need help.

"Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
~Isaiah 41:10~

And at this point, I NEED His strength. Oh how I need Him. Him only. He IS my strength, my very present help in {stress}.

4 comments:

Bleah Briann//Lovely said...

Hey! That short story is really, really good! Mind if I post it on my blog? Naming you as the author of course...with a link to your blog. But that story is sooo inspiring. Please reply on my blog if its not to much trouble...to let me know whether or not I can post it. :)
Thanks!
With Love and Blessings,
Bleah Briann

Emily said...

I loved that,Amber!

Lindsey said...

Thanks for the encouragement, Amber!
I really like that short story. Have you written any long stories?

-Bess- said...

Love you, Sis!
-Bess-