Oh, so much to share.
My mind is much more messier than my room, just so ya know ;)
But even though it's filled with worry & fear about the future, my mind is abundantly filled with
beauty &
love &
expectation for the future.
You know, my Mama is so imperfect.
But I realized that she is perfect for me.
And that...that is perfect.
When I see my Mama loving on her children, I can't help but smile & think of my own someday ;) That brings me more joy than I can say! (Oh, let the tears just fall, Amber.)
Tears. Oh, to wipe a child's tears away, and snuggle them upon my breast.
I wanna be a Mama more than anything.
Today at our home school conference, our speaker talked about Jonathan Edwards.
He & his wife home schooled their children, and after about 100 years, "they" did a research thing where they found out what their decedents became. Just out of that couple, came doctors, and lawyers and pastors and missionaries.
(I may of got some facts wrong :)
And it got me thinking! ("I see those wheels turning!" my mom says when she sees my head in the clouds.)
I wonder what my decedents will be!
I wish with all my heart that I could see the bigger picture. I wish I could just take a peak at what they'll look like. Will they look like me?!
And with that thought it mind, it made me wonder, of course, about my decisions & actions & plans.
Oh, I desire with all my heart to be a wife & a Mama. More than anything! I think I would turn down college & traveling & archaeology just to raise a family.
My desire to travel & become other things is great, but to me, there is no greater "job" than raising a family. That in itself is a ministry I believe. Because leaders are born in the home!
Check this quote out:
"We may never see the impact of our witness this side of heaven. But rest assured, we plant more seeds in our day-to-day conversations, debates, and examples than we think we do." (Unknown)
Like my little KaleyBear "planting those seeds". (ok, so she's "replanting" a branch)
"She who makes a good home, where others are encouraged and strengthened, she is ready to speak a kind and encouraging words to those in need; she who keeps a humble and quiet everyday service to God is glorifying Him just as much as those who go on special missions."
~Unknown~
Just some thoughts I've been thinkin'. Thanks for reading ;)
Enjoy these few pictures that just make me smile!
4 comments:
Great post, Amber. :) I know exactly how you feel. I also want to be a wife and mother more than anything. There are so many times when I'm with children that my "motherly instinct" kicks in and I think of how I can't wait to have some of my own. :)
~Kristin
It's so awesome that you have a mother who instilled those values in you. And trust me, there are times when I think I'd throw this whole college thing to the wind in order to have kids =D
What beautiful thoughts on the desires of your heart...ones I share and often have many head in the clouds moments. ;) I wrote about something similar to this topic a while ago...
http://justasiam-meghan.blogspot.com/2010/11/specific-daydreams-mother-hen.html
Can't wait to see how the Lord brilliantly fulfills these desires of our hearts!
Beautiful post Amber!
You touched my heart.
Those photos are beautiful, too.
The dove picture is gorgeous.
Thank you for sharing. :-)
Blessings,
Leah
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