I think Moses is my ancestor...

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Do you ever have those days where you just feel peace & joy & love & you can see the Lord's work in your life?

Then you go to your journal & write everything down & feel so at peace.

And then the next day...BAM!

Yeah, that's how I feel.

I kind of saw it coming. I feel the exact opposite of those feelings I had just described.

I feel defeated with fear:

Not good enough for God's will.

A failure when it comes to His "nudges".

Fearful even though I claim to "trust" Him.

I've been reading about Moses in Exodus & I'm pretty sure this guy is the line I come from =)

Let me show you why...

"But why me? What makes you think that I could ever go to Pharaoh and lead the children of Israel out of Egypt?"

v. 3:11 (The Message)

"Master, please, I don't talk well. I've never been good with words, neither before nor after you spoke to me. I stutter and stammer."

4:10

"Oh, Master, please! Send somebody else!"

4:13

"My Master, why are you treating this people so badly? And why did you ever send me? From the moment I came to Pharaoh to speak in your name, things have only gotten worse for this people. And rescue? Does this look like rescue to you?"

5:22-23

Moses answered God, "Look—the Israelites won't even listen to me. How do you expect Pharaoh to? And besides, I stutter."

6:12

And Moses answered, "Look at me. I stutter. Why would Pharaoh listen to me?"

6:30

Moses was so unsure of himself, & this is only in the first 6 chapters! Do you how many books were written about his life in the Old Testament?!

BUT! Here are the Lords' responses & promises to fearful Moses (& Amber)

"He responded [to Moses], "I will certainly be with you."

3:12

"The LORD said to him, "Who made the human mouth?...Is it not I the LORD? Now go! I will help you speak & I will teach you what to say."

4:11-12

"I am Yahweh."

6:2